It’s strange.

Often times, when I wake up in the morning and my feet hit the ground I feel as though somehow my life has been cheated away from me. It seems as if, while I was sleeping, that my life has somehow altered and changed, I feel different and sometimes I wonder if maybe I am. That I have become a little smarter while I have slept, a little wiser, and perhaps a bit more free than I was before. That maybe this life has the possibility of something greater than it did in the past, even if the past was really only a few hours prior, that maybe this life is on its way to having a future.



Other times I feel completely wasted.

And its sad really, waking up not with a feeling of freedom or the fresh adventure of a new day, but feeling as though the task of waking, and breathing, and going about the same simple tasks I do everyday has somehow become monotonous and unimportant. Like I have lived this day before and do not wish to do it again.



recently, i had the unique experience of viewing an independent-esque movie about the Indian culture. In the comforts of my own home i was able to tap into a bit of the Indian world and i somehow feel as though i have a better grasp and understanding of them.


the title of this movie was "Namesake" which followed an Indian family as they learned to adapt to the American culture, so different from what they were used to in their homeland.


The film began zoomed in on a particular young Indian man in his late teenage years who was traveling on a train in India. The train crashes and the young man is the only survivor, burned, broken, and scarred for life. Subsequently, he began to really value his life because of this event, "from that day forth every day was a gift," he said.

the line was poorly delivered and seemed to have been read straight from the script but for some unknown reason, that one line struck truth to my heart.

does it really take an accident or something horrifying to put us on track?

it shouldnt.

listening to an unknown song in the car of my dear friend one line stuck out to me-
"... i want to change the world but instead i stay in bed and sleep..."
and i had to wonder.
how many of us stay at home and sleep when we should be out changing the world?
its crazy.

we are crazy.

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"can you imagine what it feels like to have someone sit you down and tell you that you're dying? the gravity of that, hmm? then the clocks ticking for you. in a split second your awe is cracked open. you look at things differently. you savor everything, be it a glass of water or a walk in the park. but most people have the luxury of not knowing when that clocks going to go off. and the irony of it is that that keeps them from really living their life. it keeps them drinking that glass of water but never really tasting it." [Unknown]

dont be afraid to get your feet wet; dare to taste the water.

Aspirations of The Starbucks Experience

Greetings, and Seasonal Felicitations to you all! =]I have recently aspired for myself to accomplish the reading of a certain industrious book-- The Starbucks Experience by Joseph A. Michelli.

The subtitle of which inspires me to do something, anything which could or might be considered great-- "5 Principles for turning ordinary into extraordinary"

Who wouldnt want to pick up a book with such a subtitle?
Its enchanting really...

Nevertheless, I wont bother boring you with the endless details or a summary of the nine page introduction, which i happily skimmed over then proceeded to skip, however i would like to share a quote found at the start of the very first chapter--

"This is the true joy of life, the being used up for a
purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one;
being a force of nature instead of a feverish, selfish
little clot of ailments and grievances, complaining
that the world will not devote itself to making you
happy." [George Bernard Shaw]

I must admit, i havnt the slightest incling of who George Bernard Shaw is, I DO, however, have a very strong oppinion on what i think about this particular quote of his.

My whole thoughts on this quote can be summerized in two simple words- absolutely BRILLIANT!

Shaw has somehow managed to pin-point, in only one sentence, the very problem the wonderful, land dwelling, inhabitants of America are facing.

Here is our problem-- we are all waiting for something or someone, to give us exactly what we desire but we are all too lazy to work for that desire for ourselves. We sit around aimlessly feeding off of the happiness of those around us, couting on others to fulfill our needs. If you want something done, then by jingo you ought to DO IT YOURSELF!

How long will it take you to understand that you, and only you, are solely responsible for your happiness!? If those around you do not want more for themselves then to sit around and wallow, it is STILL in your own control to go against the tide and be a healthy ray of sunshine!

Do not rely on anyone else to make you happy, if you are unhappy with your life then change it and for gods sake if you arent going to change it then stop complaining about it!

[the.end]
.happy christmas.

The Reality of a Promise Broken

It happens all the time- Every day, someone makes a silly promise, an unrealistic idea spoken into words & sworn to another person, & everyday someone is hurt by a promise that was so easily broken. See, I don't think anyone can fully understand what kind of problems promises can cause, what kind of hurt can occur- a result of a promise made, & broken within a strangely short amount of time. What is it about promises that seem more reliable than our sincere word?

Someone wise once told me that if you were trustworthy enough, you wouldn't have to make promises. You wouldn't need the silly phrase "I promise" to back you up, your word would be enough, your word would be able to stand on its own & survive. Why then do we continue to insult each other and ourselves with promises? Do we not trust ourselves and others enough to simply take them by their word?

James 5:12
Above all, my brothers, do not swear—not by heaven or by earth or by anything else. Let your "Yes" be yes, and your "No," no, or you will be condemned.

The bible states it plain as day light, yet we still find the need to say "I promise" or ask of other to promise something they have said they are or aren't going to do. We feel secure in the words I promise. This is, however, a false security, a promise does not show devotion to another, a promise does not make you a better person, a promise does not make you wise; it does in fact seem to do the complete opposite. A promise, when broken shows no devotion, it does not make you a better person & a promise only makes you more foolish then you were before; a promise means nothing because a promise simply should not exist.

Let your yes be yes and your no be no, do not feel pressured into a promise, let your word stand on its own.

Best Friends

i noticed for the first time in a long time how sad it is for best friends to stop being best friends.
sometimes its a slow decrease...it happens over a period of time when the two friends have so many different things going on in their lives that they can't find time to be with eachother anymore... they still call everyonce in a while or text when they're bored but they don't hang out anymore, their lives arent intertwined like they used to be & eventually they find that they hardly know eachother . they find new best friends but theres no hard feelings between them, theyre happy for the time they spent together but fine with the mutual decision to not be BFFs anymore.

some best friends however, break up because of silly things; fights over things that don't matter or hard feelings about things that happened in the past, they stop being friends at all & become enemies. & even though they sometimes regret not being friends anymore neither one of them can put away their pride long enough to reach out & patch things up.
the saddest thing though is when it happens without one of the parties involved even knowing it. one person thinks the relationship is fine while the other person is harboring hard feelings about them that they are too scared to admit. a sort of resentment that almost developes over night takes place in the heart of one while the other doesnt suspect a thing. its not until its too late that the other person even notices that the best friend he once had is gone forever....
& it kind of sucks, you know?

& i'm not sure what the point of this particular post is or if it even has a point at all... maybe i just want to remind everyone to hold on to the great friendships they have while they still can, not harbor bad feelings about someone they really care about, reach out to save a friendship thats really worth it & never be the ignorant one in a relationship. maybe i just wanted to remind everyone to appreciate their best friends & have loads of fun with them while theyre still around... or maybe i just wanted to get all this stuff out of my mind...

because i've been in every one of thse situations... i've been in the mutual decision to never go back to being friends, i've been in a stupid fight & lost a great friend over it, & i've been the one making a new best friend while harboring bad feelings against an old one... & its kind of sad, you know? how many friendships we throw away, or how many people we decide not to be friends with even though we hardly know them...

& even now i can think of several people i know in each of these situations... & i find myself hating the fact that they are having to go through this... because more often then not, we regret that we didnt keep up a friendship, & more often then not (whether we choose to admit it or not) we miss our old friends & in some ways we almost just want to jump back into the pictures & be with them again, relive the fun moments, the moments we can never have again...